Thursday, July 15, 2010

I'm resigning myself to the fact

I give up on the gym, and working out and attempting to not look pudgy all the time.
My fiance (god I hate that word it's so cheesy) is in amazing shape and works out almost every day. I on the other hand get discouraged very easily and feel that it is seriously unfair that I have to work 4 times as hard to get minimal to no results. Every time he leaves for the gym I feel a little worse about myself for not going.

I give up.

I am never able to lose any weight and I'll always be not fat, but not thin either. Average. I hate wearing a bathing suit, I loathe wearing shorts, and no matter how much I work out or what kind of classes/weight training/cardio takes place I still. look. the. same.

So what is the point? I don't gain weight if I don't work out. I'm just stuck in this stagnant space where my body always looks the same and I always feel crappy about it. Nothing short of a personal trainer and 4 hour a day workouts is going to make a difference.

3 comments:

Teeny said...

I also hate the word fiance. I feel so pretentious every time I say it.

I feel caught in the same guilt, work, no progress cycle with the gym. It sucks. That's pretty much all there is to say about it. And no matter how much other people tell you look great, it really only matters how you feel. I hope it turns around for you soon- you know I think you're beautiful!

Anonymous said...

AMEN SISTER!!!

i feel the same way.

I do zumba. I do yoga. I look the same. I'll never be skinny but I'll (hopefully) never be fat.

I'll just be average and I'm (semi) finally coming to terms with that.

It literally took ALL of my might to lose SIX pounds for my wedding..and at the end of the day, I looked the same. lol.

P.S. I think of you as skinny and the body i want to have, so be happy! lol

xoxoxo
Courtney

JGIWC said...

DITTO, DITTO, DITTO to all of the above. I am always going to feel a little bit fat, no matter what. How you FEEL is really the only thing that matters, but you should know that we all THINK that you're gorgeous!