Sunday, September 21, 2008

family

I want to write about it, I don't want to write about it.

I won't. Everything I thought to be true and trusted seems to have crashed and burned in the past couple days. But it's been there all along, my whole life actually and I had no idea.

I feel like I don't know who I actually am at the moment...and there is someone out there who could help me understand. I wonder if they are as curious about me as I am about them?

I thought it might help to write something, but it doesn't.

7 comments:

Clay Perry said...

its a hard pill to swallow when things you think are stable, or at least manageable, fall to pieces in a slow motion shattering that you are forced to watch but have no way of stopping.

amh said...

Not a clue what's going on, but I am a call or an email away if you need to talk. Love you lots!

Teeny said...

Thinking of you.

CDM said...

I don't know if Joel told you or not, but I went through the same thing about 3 years back. Its a huge bomb dropped and definitely takes time. I remember being so angry with my dad. I think that we are overdue for a coffe date. We're talking about taking a trip up there, especially now that flying is not such an issue, unfortunately I have to be wise with my sick days, because I've been out a fair amount already,a syou know. If you're coming back to Orlando, let us know and we can make a trip down there and have a picnic/powwow/cry/vent/bitch and moan session. Or you can call me. I don't have much going on after school these days. You'll work through it, it will take time, like all things. A lot of questions to be answered and sometimes the answers help, sometimes they just fuck with you even more. But we're both here for you, if you need us.

Z said...

Whatever is going on, I hope you are OK... That you get through it... (hug)

Anonymous said...

hope you are okay <3 love you
-Courtney

Winnie said...

<3