Did you ever have a moment, when you realized something life changing, and you can't put your finger on it but it's there, and undefinable. Maybe it's only a little tiny moment, but there it is, and there is nothing you can do to change it.
Just a constant feeling that you never had before.
When the seasons change, from summer to fall, and you walk outside and the air smells different and the light is somehow different. I can't describe it, you just have to be there to understand. That's what I mean. It feels like that.
All these small moments have come together just right and happened in the perfect way. Good and Bad. Heartbreaking and Happy. I wouldn't leave out any of the bad, the pain makes the good feel that much more amazing and how would we ever appreciate without suffering?
Now it comes in shorter waves. Sometimes more painful, a nickname or a once private joke. How delicate a situation this has become. I'm always on the line between being devastated and ecstatic. Its sort of unhealthy but I know it's only a phase and I definately see a glaring light at the end of this ever shortening tunnel. Love is a strange thing, it evolves and grows and I know now I could never go back. Something different has taken the place of what once was, and Im not sure how to define it yet.